The Quest for Control

img_0943I asked the photograhper if I could keep the dress…He said no…SO I decided not to smile and ruin the picture. I was 5 years old. The photographer thought it was funny, my parents thought it was funny….me? I was pissed and wanted to scream. I still remember taking that picture and how unbelievibly tight and itchy that freaking dress was. So why did I want to keep it? Why did I want to hold onto something that made me itch and unable to breathe? Because I wanted control. Oh the things we do for control….

The name of my website is I believe we are all passionatley driven towards something. So what does passion mean?

Can control really be considered a passion? I believe it can. One of the biggest things that I have been passionately driven towards is control.

Fear that seems emotionally uncontrollable can result in the urge to control

Control goes hand in hand with fear and addictions. This week is National Eating Disorder Awareness week (NEDA) so I will use some examples from what someone might say with an eating disorder….

“I was scared and didn’t know what was going to happen so I started controlling what I ate. I could always control that.”

“I was scared of failing so I started controlling what I ate. I was very good at controlling what I put into my body. It was impossible to fail at that.”

Then it turns into:

“I can’t control what I eat anymore, I feel like it’s controlling me….I’m terrified that I’m going to become fat.” (FYI- Fat is not a bad thing but our fat phobic diet culture society seems to beg to differ… big eye roll)

“I can’t lose any more weight, I am such a failure at this eating disorder. I feel so out of control.”

We are controllable through the manipulation of all that we fear…No fear – no control

-David Icke

Pay attention to what you think you are controlling because the thing you think you are controlling might actually be controlling you.

Be Fervently Driven

-Amie Hope


Disclaimer: My website is for inspirational and educational purposes only and is not a substitute for therapy or medical care.☀️


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